“I have never in my whole life found freedom like I did behind that razor wire. It was because of Christ.”
How did you meet Jesus?
Volunteers at Oklahoma County Jail led me to Christ. I would go to the Chaplain’s office just to be around them because when I was with them, I felt really different. I felt good. I felt valued, worthy, forgiven, and important when I was with them.
I used to be very anti religion. I didn’t know the difference between having a relationship with Christ and being religious. When you are a heroin and meth addict, you know there are places you don’t belong. Even in our addiction, we always know the places that we don’t fit.
I had always felt that I would never be good enough to be a person who has their life together. But these women would sit and talk to me. They showed me there is so much freedom in Christ, that you can give some away. I became changed because of how they loved me with God’s love. They walked me into faith.
In prison, I went to every chapel service. I have never in my whole life found freedom like I did behind that razor wire. It was because of Christ.
How would you describe your Stand in the Gap family and the impact that experience had on your life?
My Stand in the Gap team had built their foundations so strong that they allowed me to stand on their foundation while I was building mine.
That first year, my relationships with other people were transformed because I was becoming transformed. Everything I did, I was working as if I was working for Christ. Through my Stand in the Gap family, I learned that I was a valued enough person to be able to be that. My relationships with my son and brother became restored.
Now here we are 8 years later and from those people that were my Stand in the Gap then, we still continue to share life together. In the moments that I need a confidante, they are still my family.
I knew my Stand in the Gap family was a serious gift. I knew God had blessed me with people that would take me above and beyond anything I imagined and it has. I thought the best life could be for me would be that I wouldn’t use, and would get a job that would pay the bills. But you don’t understand the abundance that’s out there. The best life you can think of in prison is fixing the life you already had. But the old is gone. God is laying the foundation for something new. People through Stand in the Gap are praying for you before you even know they exist. It’s overwhelming.